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damn [24 Jul 2007|02:51pm]
its been like 3 years. nothing really new to write except that i'm trying to lose weight. im gay. haha. peeeace.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

WEDDING PICS!!! [23 Oct 2004|04:45pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

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(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

[13 Oct 2004|03:32pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

Hello, friends. Haven't heard from me in a while? Hrm. Wonder why. Anywho... how has everyone been?

I just got home from seeing Ladder 49 with Anthony. It was a really good movie. Even though I don't fight fires, it still makes me proud to do what I do... save lives.

Class is going exceptionally well, however, I guarantee you I am going to fail my state exams. I'm so positive.

And to Amanda and Liz... all I gotta say is...


(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

[10 Oct 2004|10:46am]
i'm alive!! looks like i've missed a lot this week.

i was disappointed on missing fetus fest.
oh well.

i missed you guys.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

[30 Aug 2004|06:48pm]
1. Copy and paste this into your journal.
2. Bold everything that applies to you.

01. I have a cell phone.
02. I'm obsessed with high heels.
03. I'm the youngest child.
04. I am a shopoholic.
05. I love hoop earrings.
06. I am a libra.
07. I love vodka.
09. I can't live without lip gloss.
10. I can't live without music.
11. I lived in Purgatory for 3 months.
12. I spend money I don't have.
13. I'll be in college forever.
14. I've seen Jason Mraz.
15. I get annoyed easily.
16. I eventually want kids.
18. I have more then a couple of horrible memories.
19. I am addicted to Lizzie McGuire.
20. I am a person.

21. My first kiss was when I was 18.
22. I start film school in February.
23. I love taking pictures.
24. I hate girls who are fake.
25. I can be mean when I want to.
26. My dreams are bizarre.

27. One of my close friends is gay.
28. I have way too many purses.
29. I've seen 'Fight Club' at least 45 times.
30. I usually dress how I feel that day.

31. I love 'Sex and the City'.
32. Sometimes I cry for almost no reason.
33. I hate when people are late.
34. I procrastinate.
35. I love winter.
36. I have too many clothes for my closet/dresser.
37. I love to sleep.

38. I wish I were smarter.
39. I'm afraid of flying.
40. I hate drama.
41. I am addicted to 'The O.C.'
42. I love my hair.
43. I never fight with my parents.
44. I love the beach.
45. I have never had the chicken pox.
46. I'm excited for the future.
47. I can't control my emotions.

48. I can't wait till New Year's.
49. I love the show 'Rich Girls'.
50. I love my friends(most of the time)
51. Christmas is my favorite holiday.
52. I can be very insecure sometimes.
53. I have never broken a bone.
54. I hate racist people.
55. I hate my computer.
56. I love guys that play the guitar.
57. I state the obvious.
58. I'm a happy person.

59. I love to dance.
61. I hate cleaning my room. ( I hate cleaning..love organizing)
62. I tend to get jealous very easily.
63. I love cute underwear.

64. I love John Mayer.
65. I cry when I see animals/people getting hurt/abused.
66. I want to go to Greece.
67. I don't like to study for tests.
68. I love God.
69. I am too forgiving.

70. I have a horrible sense of direction.
71. I love(d) high school.
72. I have a talent of sweet-talking my way out of things.
73. I'm a mamas boy/girl.
74. I love kisses.
75. I love the color (hot) pink.
76. I love to sew.

77. I have green eyes.
78. I love the Olsen Twins.
79. I played soccer for 14 years.
80. I become stressed easily.
81. I hate liars.
82. I like comfy sweat pants.

83. Paul Walker is my dream guy.
84. I love the smell of asphalt after it's rained.
85. I love my family.
86. I hate needles.
87. I am a perfectionist.
88. I always wanted to learn to play the drums.
90. I am still a virgin.
91. I would love to have my own fashion line.
92. I can be quite selfish.
93. I still act like a little kid.
94. Above all, I despise dishonesty.
95. I love pictures.
96. I love music.
97. I wish I were more motivated when it comes to school.

98. I love getting stuff in the mail.
99. I have problems letting go of people.
100. I hate the feeling of being alone.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

grrr [23 Aug 2004|03:05pm]
ugh, i can't wait for school to start. i'm so bored....


same place in the morning? haha... 3rd year in the same spot...

(3 Dreams Left Untold | As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

[13 Aug 2004|03:01pm]
happy friday the 13th, bitches.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

Fun Quizzes you should Read [11 Aug 2004|05:30pm]

Your LiveJournal Love Life
LJ Username
You are lusted after by: thekillinghand
You will be seen naked by: smokingpope
You will have casual sex with: demonchild17
You will be loved by: adawg
You will fall in love with: adawg
You will end up with: thekillinghand
This cool quiz by butterkitty - Taken 75713 Times.
Get Free Daily Horoscopes from Kwiz.Biz

Which LJ friends will you sleep with?
LJ Username
Favorite Color
Are you drunk?
Sex in the backseat of a car demonchild17
Sex at a democratic convention thekillinghand
Sex on a nude beach smokingpope
Hottest sex of your life smokingpope
Sex rating - 76%
Number of times you will orgasm 90
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which of your LJ friends would come to see you perform at a strip club?
LJ Username
slips you a 20 adawg
receives a lapdance from you thekillinghand
gets extra favors after the show thekillinghand
buys you a drink thekillinghand
gets kicked out by the bouncer for licking the pole kilgore_dent
doesn't tip you at all,that fucker kilgore_dent
This fun quiz by MODernSlut - Taken 38486 Times.
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nate's mean, no tip.

Which One Of Your LJ Friends Will You Marry?
LJ Username
Favorite color
You will marry... kilgore_dent
You will be married for...years 93
Your combined income will be... $686,056.40
You will have...children 37
This QuickKwiz by fuzzinabox - Taken 35740 Times.
New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!

SEX! Now that I have your attention...
Favourite Color
Your favourite sexual position is Ass sex (ass means donkey you sick pervert)
Your favourite sexual place is on Temptation Island, hoping your partner is watching so you can piss them off
Your favourite sexual partner would be two orange midgets that look strangely like oompa loompas
Your favourite sex toy would be two whoppers, a large coke, and a large chips (we are ozzies its not fries its CHIPS)
This QuickKwiz by RoTTeN - Taken 19974 Times.
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Which of your LJ friends are you most likely to have a threesome with?
LJ Username
threesome partner 1 kilgore_dent
threesome partner 2 deadskunkx
This cool quiz by MODernSlut - Taken 14981 Times.
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nate and dan... ahhhhhh

How dirty are your friends?
LJ Username
wants to lick your ear deadskunkx
wants to give you a massage deadskunkx
you have to be this tall to ride the deadskunkx
likes your ankles kilgore_dent
spies on you through a hole in your wall! deadskunkx
secretly masturbates to your userpics thekillinghand
This Quiz by ass_ - Taken 14489 Times.
New - Kwiz.Biz Astrology

liz, i knew it!!!

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

mmm... kinky... [11 Aug 2004|05:29pm]

How Good are you at Certain Things?
Favorite Color
Sex - 27%
Romance - 21%
Self - Control - 0%
Kissing - 47%
Cuddling - 39%
Kinkiness - 77%
This Quiz by KillianO - Taken 86588 Times.
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(1 Dream Left Untold | As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

yeahhhhhhhh Hreha!! [10 Aug 2004|01:48pm]

Your LJ Perfect Date
LJ Username
Choose a random word
Your Perfect Date smokingpope
You have dinner at who needs dinner when you've got dessert? *wink*
Afterwards you get drunk
Your date asks you to movie in together
You say I love you
Chance you will get lucky - 71%
This fun quiz by akasha82 - Taken 102411 Times.
New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

[10 Aug 2004|01:33pm]
haha had an awesome night with hreha the other day. such things were said as "girthy" and "grab-ed". good times, good times.

i have been up to pretty much nothing this whole entire summer. i'm so damn bored all the time.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

woo hoo!! [05 Aug 2004|09:41am]
I made my journal pretty, everyone. WOOT WOOT!!! haha yeahhhh! Now go see it. NOW!

(2 Dreams Left Untold | As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

Sorry I've died. [04 Aug 2004|10:11pm]
I'm kinda updating my Xanga more than Livejournal, so you gotta post me to keep me writing. :-P

(3 Dreams Left Untold | As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

bored [21 Jul 2004|09:31am]
[ mood | ditzy ]

sooooo bored. I bike 14 miles yesterday with Joce at the Boston Trail.
eh, I need a life. I want to go to Circleville every day next week. Booo. If you want to come with me/take me, either way, gimme a call. w00t.

i'm such a loser,

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

From Zach's Journal [19 Jul 2004|11:57am]
[ mood | depressed ]

Monday, July 19, 2004

so i am here at my grandparents house in illinois for two freaking weeks. nothing to do, nobody to keep me amused, occupied, entertained, or just kill my loneliness. nobody. but im here so i might as well try and enjoy something here. dont know what there is to do, but ill try. last time i was here was around easter. i kept myself occupied by exchanging emails maybe like twice a day with leen. that was my only way of getting through the time away. that was also the time when i really started writing songs and just writings about my emotions during my life then. and now i can sit in my room alone at night and see where that has gotten me. paper upon paper of jut useless complainging about how i wish life were so much more how i prayed every night it would turn out to be. but yeah enough about that stuff.

i spent saturday night with gina at the fair again. we had a really good time. we played bingo (addiciting!), i won her a panda bear, then we went and sat on a bench where we got into deep conversation about where i felt my heart was in life. it's like a vicious circle of mixed emotions. she couldnt love me because her heart was stuck with somebody she needed, and now its the same story for me, i cant say i love you to gina because my heart is stuck with eileen. and i feel like the biggest fuck for it. its almost as if everything is perfect when i spend the time i do with gina. she gives me everythign she has but i can only give her so much back. because a part of me is in love with the yesterday. i bluntly told her that i ws still in love with eileen saturday night, not the best thing for her but it needed to be said. she was dead then after this. i felt horrible. she walked away but i followed her and we talked again. i told her that i am sorry that im not going to be able to give the true love back to her. she tells me that as long as i am lsiten to her and take in the feelings she sends me then that is all she needs. but she cant survive on just that. she needs my heart. but im unable to forget her. i just cant. i talked to her for the first time in a week friday night. i sat beside her and then it became to much for me and i broke apart. its like my feelings for her always get the best of mee when i know that they cant be shared by both of us. but thats how it goes. i know she s orry for what she feels she did to me, but in the end, me being miserable was my own doing. my fault truly. but i can live on find to like somebody else i think, i have. so i know i can. but it wont be love. it cant be. my love is longing away every night and day. but damnit, gina, you are a wonderful person and i am grateful for the itme we share, and i hope to spend more with you. you puta smile on me when i need it most. im sorry for my lost love, its gone these days.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

alright. well, here's what zach left in my Xanga: [10 Jul 2004|07:30pm]
[ mood | tired ]

don't feel like you arent doing enough, because you are doing more than i could ask for. you are the one who gives methe courage to open my eyes every morning and live another day. its you who has opened my heart and read everything inside of it like a book, jsut so i know that you are the real thing. its you gina. don't feel like you are falling short of what i need. if anybody should be sorry its me, im the one who is constantly crawling around complaining about how much i miss eileen. and i know this can't be good for you to listen to. im trying to let go and more time with you can only be better for me in this conflict im in. so i really hope to see you again soon, you are beautiful in every aspect that a person could be. until we are together again, goodbye.

i need you, Zach

Posted 7/10/2004 at 12:10 PM by KilltheEmotion

but idk... things are so damn confusing right now. after all that, i still know what it feels like to lose someone you truly love, and i'm scared to get into anything because i'll always know he'll always have that one thing for her.. .:sigh:. love bites...

i'm really tired. i had a long day of missionary work in Dunbar. apparently there's people in Fayette County in the projects who can't even speak English. they speak some old mountain talk bc they're so poor. i feel really bad, so we cleaned up this one house for them.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

WOOOO! THESE GUYS RULE!!! [09 Jul 2004|11:32am]
[ mood | excited ]

Reel Big Fish's Coast to Coast Roast Tour !

Featuring RX Bandits, Catch 22, Lucky Boys Confusion, Big D And The Kids Table, Jenoah and Suburban Legends.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

wow [08 Jul 2004|01:56pm]
TheReelBigFish7: because *you* make my heart smile and it feels amazing

...this is the greatest kid the world. zach, you are my best friend.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

you're so cool... [06 Jul 2004|10:47pm]
i didn't go bowling last night. but i went with shannon to the in like flint/patent pending show. both band were AWESOME. zach really made my day. he's a really good kid. i enjoyed his and shannon's company. zach did really good on stage, as did pretty much everyone else who played. except the first two people. they sucked. this one kid looked like aaron hankowitz and bob bante mixed, so it was really funny cause if they had a kid together that's what it looked like.

I watched True Romance twice in the past two days. My mom enjoyed it. She laughed when hell broke loose at the end. Good times.

(As I Sit In the Shadows Behind the Door)

now... tell me if ya agree... or disagree... [06 Jul 2004|11:21am]
[ mood | flirty ]

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...erotic
Your hugs are...gentle
Your eyes...sparkle like the stars
Your touch is...heart warming
Your smell is...beautiful
Your smile is...hypnotising
Your love is...everlasting
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